worn

today has been a bad day, he has just screamed all day. i do not know what is wrong. i don't know if it's the thai food i ate yesterday, or if he's starting teething early (he kept trying to put my fingers into his mouth) or if it's because he's exhausted but still won't take a nap. he acts hungry but then barely sucks in between crabbing. i know that we have gotten through days like this before, and in know there will be more to come, but, surprise surprise, that is really no consolation to me now, when i want to comfort him and hold him and yet at times just have to put him down and let him cry while i go to the other side of the house, just so i don't go nuts.

it doesn't help that he has been very attached lately, almost too much so, and gets upset if i am not actually holding him or laying down beside him. but for most of today even that has not helped.

i think i am going to get him suited into the bjorn and see what a walk can do, i am out of ideas, it is that, or just letting him scream himself hoarse.

apparently i could be like this as a baby, i guess this is my just desserts.