a LOST opportunity

so yesterday, LOST (the tv show caleb had been called for) called again. they needed 4 babies for today, and caleb was magic number 4.

i told them no.

"WHAT!" i can almost hear a certain LOST fan (and "star") friend of mine say.

that's right, i told them no.

now, if they had said, 'all the other babies can't make it, we definitely need to use caleb,' i would have said yes. if caleb had not had a horrible week, with his naps and even night sleep disturbed by outings or teething, i would have said yes. if i were not bogged down with trying to prepare to be on the mainland for a month and a half, i would have said yes.

however, none of those things being the case, i said no, and really don't have any regret about it. i know i would have regretted much more putting off pressing preparations, depriving caleb of the opportunity to rest, putting him through the stress of the setting and his new-found stranger anxiety ON TOP of his already worn state, and all to sit there for 6 hours and not even get him on film.

and the kind of day he had today supported my choice. this round of teething is much harder on him than the first, and today was a day almost like in the first days of learning to nap. (today was an espresso truffle day, if only i had them!)

so, he will not be a star, but then, he wasn't going to be even if he was on film anyway, and i sort of like having him to myself for now. he can be my star. we still have a story, and a paycheck (as a memento, not really for the value) if not an autographed onesie.

and we are invited to the end of the year picnic ;)